I can’t believe that she’s gone. It just really hit me. The tears came and they won’t stop. School will be hell tomorrow because everyone will be asking about it. And all I want to do is sleep but I’m wide awake. And I wish you’d get home so you could fucking call me because I need to calm down and you’re the only one that could do that right now. I’m just all over the place. I don’t even know.
You were the most inspiring person I know. It’s not fair that you had to go. But I know you’re not in pain anymore. You’ll be dearly missed.
Oh why thank you!
What is the one problem, challenge, or issue I was born to address?
Umm. Probably learn from your mistakes and SUPPORT GAYS. Learn from your mistakes because of things I’ve done. You feel like everything’s over and you’ll never be okay again but once you learn from it and realize it’s okay, it’s all good! And support gays because I’ve gone through some of the discrimination that gays have to face so I’m going to face and address that challenge.
in like 5th grade through 7th. Then I hated them till now. And I found one of their old CD’s a couple days ago and I haven’t stop listening to them. Guilty pleasure.
When were the happiest days of my life?
When I was a kid. Everyone says this but it’s true. Things were so much simpler then. All I had to worry about was what I was going to eat for dinner and if I was going to be able to watch cartoons. I didn’t have to care about what I wore or who I talked to or how I acted. It was such a care free time. Now I constantly worry about how I look, how I sound, how I act. Everyone is constantly judged. You can say you don’t care what people think but you know they do. If someone makes fun of you, you can say that it doesn’t bother you but deep down it hurts. And relationships didn’t matter back then. People had little crushes you know but it was nothing. Now I see couples every day declaring their love for each other. And how they’ll never break up and they’ll be together forever but everyone knows the second they both go off to college somethings going to happen one way or another and they’ll be broken up in a month. And I get asked about my ex everyday now. And how I feel about her and her new boyfriend. People can’t be kind enough to just not fucking bring it up because it’s hard enough and they just push me and push me till I snap on them and tell them to shut the fuck up then they make fun of me even more. On top of all that, being bisexual just brings me more judgment. Lately, I get asked everyday about it and then people start to ask really personal questions and expect me to answer them. It’s so frustrating and uncomfortable. I just laugh at them when they ask stuff but I really just want to cry. It’s so incredibly stressful sometimes. I want to be a kid again.
talking on the phone with you. asdghfhgsdg.
I asked for for mercy. I asked you for sunshine but I thank you for the hard rain.
What are the ten most significant events in my life?
I’m not sure if I’ll be able to come up with ten but here are some (Not in any specific order)
- My grandpa’s death when I was 6.
- Coming out
- My brother’s car accident last year.
- Break up with Cortney.
- Starting highschool.
Thats all I can think of.
What gives me sincere happiness?
Laughing hysterically with my family, being told I’m beautiful, having someone who I know will be laying next to me when I wake up. Those are the best things in the world. Honestly, my absolute favorite things.